Embrace Your Season

This month I have realized the beauty that can be found in every phase of our lives.

Seasons, regardless of if they feel stationery, transform our mind body and soul, and prepare our hearts for what's to come.

I not only appreciate what each time in my life has taught me, but I also recognize that there is more to it than my own story- and that is the story of those around me. 

Our human experience is closely connected and I watched this in action through the last two months when I was guided and encouraged by others who shared their own wisdom of seasons.

This time in my life has been molded by those that offered encouragement, advice, and love while I chose to discover my life and what it meant beyond the screen of superficial elements.

What I Found through the Silence:

Everyone struggles with a unique yet universal pain. The pain of feeling like we're inadequate, the pain of feeling lost, the pain of feeling alone. 

We have all at one point in life's journey experienced one or all of these emotions and we find different ways of coping with this, and for example I discovered my ability to numb that pain with other distractions. 

I found ways to block out the hurt by engaging fully in something all-consuming such as friends, social media etc. It wasn't easy but I began to train my mind to acknowledge my hurt and where it was coming from.

Sometimes that meant sitting in silence but then I learned silence can be a method of speaking to your own soul just when you need it most.

Healing our Hearts:

It's not enough to recognize why we're hurting, we have to go the point of making changes to ensure we're doing everything we can to release the grip of control it has on our lives.

It was hard for me- but one of the things I had to admit was that I was only worried about what everyone else thought of me- did I appear happy? Am I funny enough? Are my clothes in style? 

The world throws out so much doubt and insecurity, but the moment I realized I had the ability to choose to not measure my worth by it, I felt my life changed instantly.

Remember, healing that begins in our heart can only expand to everything else in our lives.

What's to come:

When you take on a different perspective of life, as I have over the last several months, it's easy to fear failure.

Instead- I accept it.

I have placed a realistic face on my demons and now they don't look so scary anymore.

I have released the pressure of performing a certain way for the world, and now I can begin loving myself flaws and all. This gives me more incentive to serve and help others who feel trapped the same way I did.